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As she disconnected from me 

without telling a reason,

without a hint of what went wrong

Leaving me bewildered & wondering in agony

I was sure we could work things out

whatever they were, with minor adjustments

I could change myself completely for her

I could have gone extra miles for setting things right

As I always knew I was not the perfect one for her

But I knew deep within, that this was not the reason,

a reason she preferred not to reveal

But I know for sure there was some other reason

a reason beyond my awareness,

a reason she never wanted me to know

I knew without a doubt that she could never be unfaithful

just fighting hard to accept her destiny as mine.   

probably it was an obligation

a compromise included in her destiny

But I know she could never have never been unfaithful to me

As she went ahead

She turned to look at me one last time

With tears in her eyes, & a trembling smile

Telling the obvious truth

It was not her choice to depart

But the result of embracing her destiny

I wish I could her hug her for one last time

as she kissed goodbye from a distance apart

For the miles we walked together seemed infinitesimally small

there was still a long way ahead, in the wonderland of our dreams

in the beautiful & abundant life

in the life awaiting to make our dreams come true

My heart was sealed for her

I thought of none except her

The faith & trust which kept our love alive

I know, i can never love anyone that way

As our love was most pure & eternal

With her gone & with unwilling desire to move on

I just have one small wish left.

I just wish her pain reduces

Suppressing the wish, she could be mine again

to live the promises we made long before

which seem to now disappear in vain

I know you will not return baby

I know we can never be together again

But I will keep waiting for you now & for ever

You can find me at cross roads where we separated

I will be there until the end of time waiting for you to return

Coz that’s the only thing which makes sense

In this life which is meaningless without you.

I know you can never be mine

Still I refuse to accept this reality

For what’s left after this

Is a sense of void without even a silly hope of your return?

The last flower from you will wither in my book

though the memories of our time together will remain afresh in my heart

there is nothing other than memories to move on in life

rather feels to move backward to relive the moments we were together.

Just once again.

I feel so cold inside

Missing all the warmth of love & care within

For there are only memories to recall

The ones to cherish for the remaining lifetime

Sometime’s life is bit unfair

Depriving small aspirations too,

For all the love we shared , I think destiny was more than generous

But this is just not the way I wanted it to end

I wish she could be mine forever,

Hopefully I could run into her in next lifetime

Hope she recognizes me then

For I will the same as I am now

Her mad lover boy. 

Loving her more than anything else.

I will miss you deeply, deep within my hearts

Amidst all these thoughts, as I realize the obvious truth

I feel a sense a soothing, a relaxed breadth in eternal bliss

For I know for sure that our destiny is not written separately

within no time, we shall be together

high up in the sky, just like a binary star

I will be yours & you will be mine

Pyar ke rahon mein chalna tumne sikhaya....

Pyar ke haseen ehsaason ke sapne sajana tumne sikhaya....

Zindagi ke najane kis ajeeb mod pe, jab tum chal diye apne raaste, tanha hum reh gaye...

Tere intezaar mein hum khade hai unhe raahon mein, jahan hum judaa ho gaye.....

Amen

PS: the situation is lady love departing from his lover, owing to her some unknown obligation in her life, the concept in last stanza is based on thought somewhere i read in a book or saw in a movie that "when a person dies, they become a star" So i extended it to lovers i.e binary stars(close stars revolving around each other, bound together by gravity or love in this case :-) Ya somewhere had to bring the amateur astronomy touch & feel to this post as well :-))

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