Saturday, July 10, 2010



This post has been published by me as a part of the Blog-a-Ton 12; the twelfth edition of the online marathon of Bloggers; where we decide and we write. To be part of the next edition, visit and start following Blog-a-Ton.

As she disconnected from me 
without telling a reason,
without a hint of what went wrong
Leaving me bewildered & wondering in agony

I was sure we could work things out
whatever they were, with minor adjustments
I could change myself completely for her
I could have gone extra miles for setting things right
As I always knew I was not the perfect one for her

But I knew deep within, that this was not the reason,
a reason she preferred not to reveal
But I know for sure there was some other reason
a reason beyond my awareness,
a reason she never wanted me to know

I knew without a doubt that she could never be unfaithful
just fighting hard to accept her destiny as mine.   
probably it was an obligation
a compromise included in her destiny
But I know she could never have never been unfaithful to me

As she went ahead
She turned to look at me one last time
With tears in her eyes, & a trembling smile
Telling the obvious truth
It was not her choice to depart
But the result of embracing her destiny
I wish I could her hug her for one last time
as she kissed goodbye from a distance apart

For the miles we walked together seemed infinitesimally small
there was still a long way ahead, in the wonderland of our dreams
in the beautiful & abundant life
in the life awaiting to make our dreams come true

My heart was sealed for her
I thought of none except her
The faith & trust which kept our love alive
I know, i can never love anyone that way
As our love was most pure & eternal

With her gone & with unwilling desire to move on
I just have one small wish left.
I just wish her pain reduces
Suppressing the wish, she could be mine again
to live the promises we made long before
which seem to now disappear in vain

I know you will not return baby
I know we can never be together again
But I will keep waiting for you now & for ever
You can find me at cross roads where we separated
I will be there until the end of time waiting for you to return
Coz that’s the only thing which makes sense
In this life which is meaningless without you.

I know you can never be mine
Still I refuse to accept this reality
For what’s left after this
Is a sense of void without even a silly hope of your return?

The last flower from you will wither in my book
though the memories of our time together will remain afresh in my heart
there is nothing other than memories to move on in life
rather feels to move backward to relive the moments we were together.
Just once again.

I feel so cold inside
Missing all the warmth of love & care within
For there are only memories to recall
The ones to cherish for the remaining lifetime

Sometime’s life is bit unfair
Depriving small aspirations too,
For all the love we shared , I think destiny was more than generous
But this is just not the way I wanted it to end

I wish she could be mine forever,
Hopefully I could run into her in next lifetime
Hope she recognizes me then
For I will the same as I am now
Her mad lover boy. 
Loving her more than anything else.
I will miss you deeply, deep within my hearts

Amidst all these thoughts, as I realize the obvious truth
I feel a sense a soothing, a relaxed breadth in eternal bliss
For I know for sure that our destiny is not written separately
within no time, we shall be together
high up in the sky, just like a binary star
I will be yours & you will be mine

Pyar ke rahon mein chalna tumne sikhaya....
Pyar ke haseen ehsaason ke sapne sajana tumne sikhaya....
Zindagi ke najane kis ajeeb mod pe, jab tum chal diye apne raaste, tanha hum reh gaye...
Tere intezaar mein hum khade hai unhe raahon mein, jahan hum judaa ho gaye.....


PS: the situation is lady love departing from his lover, owing to her some unknown obligation in her life, the concept in last stanza is based on thought somewhere i read in a book or saw in a movie that "when a person dies, they become a star" So i extended it to lovers i.e binary stars(close stars revolving around each other, bound together by gravity or love in this case :-) Ya somewhere had to bring the amateur astronomy touch & feel to this post as well :-))

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jyoths said...

Good one!!!So well put:)

Siddhesh Kabe said...

good one!!!

Anonymous said...

Love-ly...Just reminded me of someone close to my heart and made me think of him ...Feelings have been beautifully crafted into words ..Amazingly well written :)Wish you best of luck for BAT 12 :)

Someone is Special said...

"I feel so cold inside
Missing all the warmth of love & care within
For there are only memories to recall
The ones to cherish for the remaining lifetime"

Ah.. Lovely post man.. Simply inspiring..

I wish you a good luck for BATOM - 12

Saravana Kumar - Wish

Yours Frendly,
Saravana Kumar M

Jaspreet said...

Lovely!!...kept me engrossed till the end!.reminds me of something though..all d best :)

Guddu said...


astrosunilnomy said...

@Jyoths, Thanks for the comments, a sleepless night & peaceful mindset went into putting up this well...

astrosunilnomy said...

@ Siddhesh, Thanks for the appreciation

astrosunilnomy said...

@adreamygal Thanks for the appreciation, Objective achieved ! my posts are intended to provide insight into oneself, everyone is different personality & his or her own way to interpret life & things happening in life . we are reminded of our stories when we read stories of others that good isn't it, we can relate to ourselves !

astrosunilnomy said...

@Someone Is Special Thanks for the appreciation, this idea came from term "warmth of love" - opposite of warmth is cold & so framed the stanza, ya its loverly in a sad & painful way, Inspiring ? I don't know about that, it's just a tragic very painful Judaai of true lovers, Wish you too good luck !

astrosunilnomy said...

@Jaspreet, Thanks for the appreciation , good to know that you were engrossed in it, I myself was in tears writing it, So lot of concentration went in refining it from a simple idea of lovers getting separated ! Good luck for you too !

astrosunilnomy said...

@Guddu , Thanks for the appreciation , sure will read your's & all the best !

Mahesh Aadhya Kalal said...

Wishes emanating from strong feelings and heavy emotions win over the logic and become subjective as per the situations ...
seems like retrospective wish with a dose of introspection ...
nice one...

Anupama said...

Sweet n Cute... :)

Anupama said...

Sweet n Cute...

Anonymous said...

Sweet blog, I hadn't come across before in my searches!
Continue the excellent work!

Suri..... said...

Hey Sunil..nicely written really good heart touching Story....The line ,'This was not a love at first sight but a small dose of love at every sight thereafter.' owesome quotes but true :-) Keep it going Dude!! :-)


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